not feeling very enthusiastic

i feel like giving up on everything, like living a normal life where i have a career and make decent money with benefits and all that junk. This is what comes in to my mind when i think too much about my current situation. I know god has something so much bigger in store for me than i know. I have to stay on track and know that i am doing what he wants me to do, and when the going gets tough just stick it out and fight through it because when i do that i become stronger and am ready for the next trial that i am supposed to take on. I know that through every situation that i go through there is a lesson to be learned, its amazing how that works when you think about it! I have been having this feeling that after our tour in january we are going to lead normal everyday lives anymore god is going to take us above and beyond what we see or dream of, our band is backed up by a god who through him all things are possible. I know that god is going to be revealed through us and our music, i believe even more than the bands that have paved the way. I say that in the most non-boastful way ever.