i've been thinking.

I have been praying and reading my bible, knowing that the promise God has given me will come to past.

I am sad when i see people stay stuck blindly in there ways and hit this ceiling of change and they are afraid to try and breakthrough it. So they stay stuck in a comfort zone for years where they will never learn to take the chances put in front of them. They are scared of CHANGE. Change although hard is a great thing.

They fail to realize they are in such a state until they see people they love and know pass them by, making them feel left behind.

don't get left behind.

either get with it or get out of the way.

God has made us to be his fearless people, don't ever forget that.

Daniel 4:10-20

i am nothing.

the real you comes out when things get hard, when that door closes.

we fail to realize we are all just alike, we all struggle.

we are no different then one another, we are no greater than one another.

it is our moment of truth, our test.

god is still here with us, he is not going anywhere.

where do you stand?

This zeal that burns inside of me is greater than it ever has been before and for me to shelter it from the world would be foolish on my part.

I am nothing.

without god

I am nothing.

what do we need?

we all need to lay down our pride, lay down ourselves.

don't put on a front, don't live a life that you were conditioned to live.

seek god for yourself and give him your all, don't hold back what he has given to you.

at times we seek out our own and bring them down because they are not doing what is "right"

we are all different in every way, but we all serve and love the same god.

we should be coming together to bring people to know Christ at every opportunity we have!

our time is now! we can't be ashamed of who we are in god! we cant be ashamed of saying we are Christians and that we love god with all of our heart! the end is oh so very near! and we have no time to be ashamed to tell someone about god!

give them the joy and happiness you have because you serve god with all of you have! give them the chance to experience a love like none they have ever felt before!

Willingness

Are we really willing to sacrifice all we have to follow our God?

Are we ready to lose what we treasure most on earth so that we have eternal treasures in heaven?

In Matthew 19:16-28 we learn about the wealthy young man who is promised treasures in heaven by Jesus himself if he is willing to sell all he has, and follow Jesus. The young man walked away sad because he had such great wealth and did not want to sacrifice.

Everything we have on this earth means nothing at all, it is all useless. It shouldn't matter who has the nicest things or even who is higher on the corporate totum pole. What matters most is what we are doing for gods kingdom, because we are on this earth to fulfill his plans he has for our lives. We are not here as Christians to come against each other and condemn each other because now days that is all we see. We should be there to uplift our brothers and sisters not tear them down because they look differently then we do. We all love the same god and live for one god that's all that should matter.

i have

two places to blog
well isnt that the coolest thing ever?
not really.

im itching to practice.

a lot has gone on

probably more than i can even write on this page.
dont let me bore you with my rants.


i am needing more and more of god everyday that i am not on the road.
when i am out there it is simply just me and god.
when i am not, everything seems to be so much harder.
is it simply because i am escaping reality when i am on tour?
or is it me being so ungrateful when i have to return to reality?

we all have to go through these times to make us who we are.
to see what god really has in store for our lives.
i know that, but at times i want to doubt it so badly.
i know it is only the lies of the devil.

god

is in motion, this whole month has been awesome!
god has blessed us, but we must still keep in mind where he has brought us from.
and never forget why we do this, and why we were blessed with our talents.

god i love you.

i've come a long way, don't let me stop now.

today

i am ready for tour.
i am ready to move forward.
i am ready to not let anything stand in my way.
i am ready to not look back again.



are you?

the holidays

are weird, you get that lonely feeling thinking about the past. BUT it's like what better way to spend the holidays with your loving family this is my second Christmas at home and i honestly have to say i loved it a lot. I know we don't have tons of gifts or even a tree like most families. The thought is what counts, i sit here and thank god for what he has given me, and what he has put me through. I have become stronger and still have a long long way to go. Our life is one big learning process its amazing not knowing where I will be at 5 years from now. I had the strength today!

a never ending parade

parade me in please.

i am nothing.
i have nothing.

i will only listen to you if you listen to me.
i am stuck in this frame, this film will end soon enough.

i have to get out soon.
i have to get out soon.


where are you now that i need you.

and in this day

we will find our solace
and in this day
we will find our meaning
and in this day
we will find why we are alive
and in this day
we will find who we are

feeling good

I'm freaking chill dude, things are really starting to roll for the band. God is in control, we have to get ready for the ride. The Experience of a lifetime. I told my job today about me leaving for two weeks for our tour, and I have to go straight up and talk with the big boss! Excited for that more than you know....SIKE! haha I'm outs kicking it with my family.

all of a sudden

people know how to do everything the right way, when before they never did it.
i dont know if will ever go anywhere in life, thats how i feel right now. maybe its because im not out and about as much as i was before. Its like what happened to me?

where

am I going? What am I going to do?

long day

went to the beach, had a good talk with josh on the way to franks house. I am so lost without you god there is really no way i can do this alone. I know better, I am nothing without you.  Lord I need your strength and keeping power. Help me when I am in need. I am listening to The Glorious Unseen right now. Lord i need you more and more each and everyday. Forgive me.

i opened up my bible

and this scripture was right there. Jeremiah 16:5-13

why dont you just give up.

is what i am telling myself right now. Why am I trying if all that ever seems to happen is the same thing, am i wrong for the way I feel? I am human just like everyone else. I want to move out and be on my own, it is like I have been on this same path the last 13 years. What makes this time any different? Still the same struggles just a different city, a different time. A normal life seems kind of nice right now, but then again would I really be very happy? Would things really be any different? It is like I am screaming in the middle of a forest for God to save me, and he can't hear me because of all the trees sheltering my voice. It feels like no one really knows how I feel right now, but then again of course people out there do right? I don't know why someone would drop it all to follow their one passion, even if it means struggling in every aspect of life. Here I am doing the same thing for myself it is not selfish at all. These dreams get put into our heart to follow and not let anything get in the way. So why should I be upset? I just want to give up on my family, music, band, god, work, anything that I enjoy and sacrifice my time for. It's like everyone else can do what they want, and then when it comes to me it is not the same story. I have to be perfect when I am not.

its crazy how

much one little thing can ruin your whole day or make it better. I had a very positive vibe today! It helped all kinds for me to get through my day. Friday we play modesto then saturday we go to madera! I watched old videos today of our old shows when we first started and oh my godddd haha we've come a very long way im excited for what god has in store for us. I love him tremendously. This weekend we are going to tear it apart. This is how I worship.

its crazy

how many bands there are nowadays and how many make it then right when they do, its all over. Its funny how so many bands also drag on their career when they/we know its all over already. haha I just want to get out of hollister and make this world my home. tour tour tour. i feel weird right now, i think i had one too many double cheeseburgers haha shiiiiiiiiiii

wrote a song today.

its weird how much of you gets put into a song, i wrote it on piano. How you really feel and where you are at in life comes out. I know i am not the most perfect christian, but i strive to be more and more like christ everyday. Mind you know i am still a human being who makes mistakes and battles with things that come my way, i want god to use me like he never has before. awaken.